WAKE THE FUCK UP, SINGAPORE


My final standpoint is that Singapore is a great place to go on holiday to- sunshine, beaches, great food. But it is one of the worst places to work in (and thus live in, since you need to work to sustain yourself, duh) in the world.

I've had enough of this fucking parade of egos, moral righteous asses and self justified fucks.

I've had enough of job interviews.

Yes, I've been lucky. Yes I've aced almost every interview I've been to and been offered a fuck load of jobs. But no, I'm not happy about it. After this past fortnight of nightmarish interviews, I am now convinced the only reason I am here is because my family is here. 

I can't make films because the government is made of conservative cunts who censor all the good shit and banned the only local made film which has been decent (15 by Royston Tan). And all the other so-called independent productions companies are not independent because they're all linked and commissioned by Mediacorp. And Mediacorp, the SOLE broadcasting company in Singapore is a government company. How fucking great. Is it just me or does anyone else see how damned ridiculous this whole situation is? Singapore is a joke. Our press and our media are monopolies owned by the government- How the FUCK are we ever going to achieve a free press and freedom of speech / expression status?

So yes, I can make films, but nobody will help me or give me the money because they are either (A) the Government or (B) too Fucking Scared of the Government. I'll make my films still. I'll make films with a camcorder and no lights and no equipment and no money, but I'll make films where nobody in the fucking world can censor my content or tell me where the fuck the moral of the story should be in my plot. SO FUCK OFF.

I've gone for interviews where someone has:

1) Used his age against me to win an argument. I.e. I'm older than you and have a successful career whereas you haven't proven yourself therefore your opinion (on this unrelated issue) is wrong. HELLO, THIS IS 21ST CENTURY SINGAPORE, WE ARE NO LONGER IN ANCIENT CHINA WHERE ELDERS AUTOMATICALLY GET RESPECT WITHOUT EARNING IT.

2) Used the fact I've studied and worked overseas against me. I.e. You can't fit into the culture because you have been westernised and Singaporeans value efficiency whereas Western people are too laidback and unproductive. Also, there is the whole "How do you think your white boyfriend will impact on your image and lifestyle?" - YES THIS HAS COME UP IN INTERVIEWS 3 TIMES

3) (This point applies to all of them) Made me fill in an application form asking about my religion, marital status and intrusive details about my family such as their names and where they are working or studying. These forms weren't as part of an equal opportunities form. And no, Singapore has no equal opportunities principles either. When I refused to fill it in, I realised I couldn't cite the right to private life or freedom of religion as a reason, because SINGAPORE HAS NO FUCKING HUMAN RIGHTS. I got told off by a few people for adamantly not filling it in.

4) Interrupted me while I am speaking all the time. I fucking hate that. If you love the sound of your own voice so much why call it an interview? Why not call it a talk from the start, so I don't even bother to speak at all?

5) Made assumptions about my values based on me being a Girl Scout in High School. Yes, there were assumptions I had good values, but then again, the good values were defined by him, and values are subjective. Also, I hate it when people make assumptions about your character based on the ecological fallacy (logical fallacy using stats of a group to define an individual in the world). I am an individual and I have my own values and I will not be defined by the fact I went camping and sang songs around the campfire.

6) Told me that if work clashed with my boyfriend's birthday for example, I must put the job first. Are you fucking kidding me? When you are so short-staffed / have such poor management you cannot let employees off for important events like family / good friends / boyfriend's birthdays, you need to reexamine your company structure and hire more staff to cover, NOT threaten your prospective employee during the interview that she MUST put work force. Go fuck off and kill yourselves please.

Wake up the fuck, Singapore. We  can't call ourselves a developed country when people still barge into you when you try to leave the lifts, trains or buses. That's uncivilised barbaric behaviour. We can't call ourselves a leading nation in politics when all we have is a dictatorship and we piss every country off by killing their people when they come in with drugs. We can't call ourselves a leading nation in the economy when the only reason the economy is so successful is because we piss on the poor and our ministers are higher paid than President Obama. We can't call ourselves leaders in international issues when we don't even have fucking human rights.

Singapore is definitely a pitstop. A fucking short one if I can help it. And if any fucking person wants to bitch about how I am ungrateful and disloyal to my country, I'd say fuck off. Loyalty is earned. What has my government done for me? Fuck all. My parents fought for every single cent they got in this capitalist work environment, they paid for my medical bills, they paid for my school fees, NOT THE GOVERNMENT. Certain teachers in school inspired me to think and shaped my character. These were individuals who inspired and helped bring me up in the world through their unique views which didn't conform to convention, not the school academic syllabus, and certainly NOT THE GOVERNMENT. A good government doesn't need emotional blackmail to get its citizens to stay. And now it is griping about how the best talents leave, has it stopped to wonder why? It's because not everyone can stand to live in a dictatorial draconian country, especially when they have been exposed to the benefits and necessity of free speech, media and press. Singapore is the only country in the world I know who has legitimised corruption.

Yes, I have great affection for Singapore (THE LAND) because I grew up here with many fond memories. But one cannot be citizen in a country where they cannot respect the government. The government is the influencing factor which determines social culture, politics, human rights (or lack of). So yes, I have tried to be happy in Singapore. And to a great extent I am, with my family, my good friends, and the sunshine. But I cannot bring myself to work in, and therefore pay taxes to a government I don't trust or respect.

Maybe Paul and I will be in New York by Christmas.


UPDATE: Wahey! Viral blogpost. Thanks to those who shared it and commented. I love you all. Yes, even those who replied with incredibly shallow stupid comments. You see I have a soft spot for people with mental disabilities.

I've replied in a new post: Rebuttals

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FY said...

Reading this brings back memories of when you spoke with such humour yet truth! I laughed so much...

But yeah, their definition of competition seem to ignore objectivity of assessment.

It doesn't seem likely that the conservatism will change, because, as with ethnic Chinese people, they will not feel enraged about those issues you've mentioned unless you take away the yummy rice and the shiny mahney...

Amid the unhappy air, I hope you are happy and healthy!! (contradicting as it is)

Melissa Low said...

Ugh I am stressed out here but I will be happy as long as I don't bottle up and hold back. Speaking my mind always and not living in fear of the government or anyone is what makes me happy.

If you remember my Bristol days, I was depressed when I was worrying too much about what people thought about me, and all the bitching and backstabbing. Although rationally it shouldn't have bothered me because if they bitch about me they're not my friends. If they're not my friends I don't care about their opinion. I was also depressed because I didn't stand up for myself at times.

Now I am aware I'm the other extreme, really standing up for everything I believe in. The only time I will choose not to get in an argument and defend my stance exhaustively is when it is my family involved, so we can have some peace and happiness in the house! But anyone else will get my 2 cents worth because it's now who I am. I believe I should lead my life always speaking the truth (even brutal truths) in order to be happy.

lOstKillerz said...

Completely agreed ma'am. Singaporeans need to wake the fuck up. I hope your bitch-slap blog post can wake the fuck out of Singaporeans. Cheers to you.

Anonymous said...

A really great post. Can't agree more.

Anonymous said...

Get a life bitch!! Every country there will be people like you complaining, no country is perfect. So stop whinning and just live your life to the fullest! !

Anonymous said...

i help u change this sentence

But one cannot be citizen in a country where government don't respect citizens

Derp said...

Brace yourself, counter-arguments from Fabrication Against The PAP, Jason Chua, Ngan Swee Heng, Johnny Bo and many others will be coming. And over-zealous messages from the other side like Pappy Tan and other apologists will come too

Anonymous said...

I am in tears after reading this.

Can I add one more point, though? The part about how nobody wants to speak up because they're too afraid even though there are obvious problems right in front of their face...

R@!$4 said...

Much angst - rave it, the exact reason why i dont bother taking Tuition Grant for Intl students which means sucking up life for a minimum of 3 years despite the awesome pay, I cannot waste my 3 years in life that draws me nearer to death of boredom.

Much as to the contrary, the reason being yes, SG being so uptight and controlled, well, its a good and bad balance. As much as I hate that all of us are puppets because really, theres nothing to organize and meddle with the system - it is there, so transparent, clean, people are a handful compared, smacked around Third World and the only First World among.

Yes, its extremely annoying how stickers around the traffic pole can be caught as crime (which means they have too much time meddling as there IS NO CRIME in SG), but that also serves as, without being controlled, it wont be a clean city as of today. As much as we, the young prefers graffiti and messiness, the more we get older we'll appreciate things happen for a reason.

Eg is, Singapore's extra orderly, Indonesia's in a flump flubber mess. Put it together, you have Bangkok as to my own description. It has the start of effiency of Singapore with safe and now more on-time mass travel transport, and still with the craziness of the city it has dwell. Isn't it the most perfect city ever? Orderly, and still messy in Asia? And all being extra cheeeeap.

But, crime rate and all the messiness of society is there.

We, the young will prefer that now, but since you're originally born and bred in the First World situation.. this complain happens. Yeah, the country's so, so, framed I cannot fathom how one can move. But, there's always something good why this needs to be controlled so its so prosperous.

Of course, you have the choice of NY so cya there hey !! Easy for you to move, we Rupiah holders gotta work 8000x harder than SG Dollars. :)

Ryan Adnin said...

Great entry, Singapore can change as whole to become perhaps a more hospitable environment to survive in, though, it would not be possible without efforts from more individuals. Also, the change can never be by force or by complaining, it has to be by communicating. Communicating ideas is what Singapore needs, I mean people in Singapore talk all the time, but it is either superficial B.S or complaining.

Just wanted to wish you well. I hope that you will never lose faith in Singapore, even though sometimes things here seem really tragic and absurd. The redeeming factor about Singapore really are the nice things/people that make up our society, the kopitiam uncle/aunty, the noisy secondary school students in their uniforms, the post men on their scooters delivering letters, the garbage collectors. It's not that these characters would not exist in other societies, but there is just something that can be appreciated about the way that they are distinctly Singaporean.

Cheers,
Ryan

hastala vista said...

I am a poly student but honesty,I think Singapore would be a better place if there are more people out there as brave as you. I salute you for what you have wrote

hastala vista said...

I am still a poly student but honestly, I think no one can say any better then you did..if only Singapore have more people which are as courageous as you..I seriously feel ashame to be a citizen of Singapore...if only education isn't tying me down I would have been out of this country

Anonymous said...

i f***ing love this , too bad some singaporeans cant accept any vulgar , f*** care with them , screw them , *peace* :)

wanhin said...

I don't know who you are, but amen.

Sahdique Mohamed said...

lol melissa low your post has no fucking link with OP.

Anonymous said...

Hey! I agree with your view point. My friend is has also been 'held up' in the hospital ward for speaking up against the government in the army. They say he has a medical condition but doctors find nothing wrong with him.

There is no room for creativity in Singapore. We are no longer humans, we are robots who have become part of a system whereby the government decides what is right and what is wrong. Morals have lost their value. Creativity is governed by what the government thinks is appropriate and 'correct'. We live in a society where money has taken priority over happiness and success is determined by your occupation and payslip.

#'First'worldpains

CodeName black-society said...

Totally agree.
The only reason why they are staying in power is because the older generations trust them and believed that they can still be able to lead the country...

The newer generations would most probably not support them due to the COE policy, lack of education spaces for degree and the compulsary NS. It gives us a disadvantage.

What are we paying taxes for when transport fares keep raising, electricity and water bills keep raising so quickly.

I used to love the army. I still love the army now but I love it for the experience and skill not for the purpose. I would never defend Singapore for a War, I would rather surrender or to be killed by the pistol of the friendly official.

After those new/smaller stinking ministers speak words for the governement that affect my life so greatly, I realized that Singapore government have no longer have her people at heart.

Every advertisement are properganda. Army, Navy, Air force, Police force advertisement to service the country.... Properganda to promote surport of NS policy with the cover up of "protecting the country".
There is no longer a country to protect. Singapore is just a heap of gold mine of knowledge and money for the foreigners.

YES I HATE THE CURRENT GOVERNMENT AND I HOPE THEY GO OUT OF POWER.
However, whether the opposition party can satisfy the people is another matter....

Anonymous said...

http://www.giraffedays.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/02/anti-authority-dystopia1.jpg
COnform or pay the price

Conform conform conform

cybergerl said...

Oh wow. I've heard the rumours, but I didn't know it was quite that..bad/intense/vicious?

I've been living in London for almost 9 years (same age as you, almost). Just when I was thinking that I'll go back there. On second thought, I think I'll just stay here and go back for holidays. ¬_¬

Rahul dave said...

Stomp is just plain stupid, prevents us from doing whatever we want. Gives us no freedom. Thank god I will be out of this country in 2 years. Totally agree with your post. Singapore is going down the drain, and we should all face this fact.

Anonymous said...

OMG, you've basically summarized all my thoughts on this lil well/hole these faggots like to call a country. How many times I've told my immediate superior to suck it and slammed his door because he has used age as an argument factor. I've honestly lost count as to the number of times I wanted to bitchslap half these FOBs over basic courtesy issues. Thank god I'm leaving next year. Well written article and I hope you achieve your goals in Singapore.

Jeraldine Phneah said...

I agree with some points you raised about the working culture in our society. Been studying in Switzerland and seen vast differences and potential areas we can improve on. However, I think it is more of an asian thing and is not solely a Singaporean one. =D

GTKY said...

Have fun in New York.

GTKY said...

have fun in New York.
Be happy, make everyone else happy.

Justin Lui said...

Great article. I'm a singaporean too btw. Completely agree with you. I guess the main problems here are our tradition(which makes people think they can throw seniority around and also push the put work above all else mentality) and our government(which just sucks too much to say anything about it). but yea i think your article should be about wake the fk up PAP^^ since i am schooling now and i do believe that my peers do not believe in that nonsense either.

Anonymous said...

Have fun, this blog post just went viral. See you on front page news.

Anonymous said...

Thumbs up! Thumbs up! Thumbs up!
Finally, I found someone having the same thoughts as me. It's just too difficult to sustain in Singapore. We aren't the citizen of Singapore but slaves.

cy said...

hey melissa! hope you're doing fine. i enjoy reading your journal! what you had written are damn true and one day i wish i could migrate to other country. i don't like the structure here. unfortunately, it takes lots of courage to do so as my family and friends are here.....

Anonymous said...

Hills, mist and a meadow in the background pic. Nice choice :)

Murphy Black said...

I'll see you in New York, fellow filmmaker! time to get out of this shithole!

Murphy Black said...

See you in New York, fellow filmmaker! Time to get out of this shithole!

Anonymous said...

The establishment and conservative pundits of Singapore sound like a 'Bunch of Cunts' You on the other hand are a refreshing 'spanner in the works of the bullshit machine' Yay! for you .

Anonymous said...

Hi, I've stumbled upon this blog of yours and damn! That was a really well written post! I share the exact same sentiments as you, and thankfully I'm not the only one feeling this way. Quite saddening that a well developed country like this is having such a 3rd world mentality.

Unknown said...

You seem to have hit it right on the nail there. Almost all Chinese people I know do not even bother about the rights and freedom the government has taken away from us, but are infinitely more concerned about how much the government is going to bribe them with pre-election (and weirdly, all failing to see this government will take tenfold once re-elected) and almost all have no qualms about slavery in the form of conscription. Heck, most of them actually supports conscription!

Then again, it could be an environment issue than an ethnicity issue.

Anonymous said...

Big respect to what you'r saying.

Bernie Leung said...

I chanced upon your blog posting via facebook and let me just say one thing at least...

YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW MUCH YOU BRIGHTENED UP MY MONDAY MORNING TODAY!! haha

The ludicrousness of the system is so blatantly apparent but most Singaporeans have been groomed (nicer way to say brainwashed) to simply accept and swallow whatever policies are being put in place. Sure, we will bitch about it for awhile especially when it means taking more of our money but for only how long? A month tops! in turn our govt thinking that we will accept whatever they say anyway and just keep doing what they think is right (not necessarily right for us btw)

Our societal system values are so badly warped that I find it appalling that so few have taken notice of it and when one voices it out one always seem to get either the 'What to do' shrug or the 'ain't my problem' look. I.e. our society is suppose to have Confucianism values like respecting our elders, BUT how can one do that when some of our elders don't even show any form of respect to anyone as human beings. (I'm using the extreme case of the 'ah lian vs. aunty in MRT')

Anyways, ranting aside (I do apologize for the early morning extended ranting) I do hope the few happy things you have left would brighten up your day and that all these crap shit interviewers won't mess up your day. I honestly do hope that you manage to come across a decent interviewer who would become a decent boss.

Best Regards,
Bernie Leung

Oliver said...

I know how you feel. As such i certainly hope your pit stop here is shorter than mine.

All the best!

Anonymous said...

I agree with you. It seems that we are slaves of the working world, with most of us having to squeeze in public transports to work early in the morning and end work late, which you still have to squeeze in public transport home.
The cost of living is also ridiculously high. Even coffee shops are slowly closing down and taken over by a certain listen chain group, which indirectly increases food cost.

Anonymous said...

Yes, please leave then. We don't need people like you here. Btw, it is because of people like you that we don't have freedom of speech. So until people like you mature or leave Singapore, we'll not have freedom of speech

stefan kozma said...

Yup. Its fucking pathetic, and worse that they just don't even get it. I used to get so enraged with things in Singapore, and I still do. I despised the shit out of the way things where. I Just moved to Sydney, participated in a march for wikileaks and liberal views. Imagine doing that in Singapore.

At least there is a possibility of making change here, I don't know when Singaporeans on the whole will get real and SEE, and sadly, I don't plan to wait, when a large part of the population is just as petty as the autocratic backwards, racist government. Majulah singapura ( I really hope, for the sake of you and all my friends there)

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Anonymous said...

I think you nailed it there. the average Singaporean has been propagandised to think that the government has been looking out for their best interests. even if said citizen has to make sacrifices, monetarily or otherwise, the government would cloak it under the banner of "for the benefit of the future." i.e they would show the "rewards" Singaporeans will receive in a 5-year plan that would be televised, printed and reported by the media (which, as you pointed out correctly, is controlled by them as well).
I do hope that your wonderful opinion is read throughout by the people here. it's a shame that such a wonderful cosmopolitan country is still lagging behind in terms of mannerisms and work etiquette.
still, good luck in your future endeavours wherever it may be at.

Anonymous said...

Well said. People like you should have a fan page. Your post is hysterical but really, it makes a whole lot of sense. Trust me, a thousand of us here feel the same way as you do... Slaves who are born to serve.

Anonymous said...

I cant help but agree with you, BUT you should try living in Malaysia. Its even worse. lol For us chinese living in Malaysia, Singapore is like (i wouldnt want to say the 'promised land'coz it might be a little exaggerated) waaaay better. Imagine having police opening roadblocks just coz they need some 'extra' cash for their new year or stopping you on the highway just coz your not malay.

Anonymous said...

whine whine...

Anonymous said...

Well said. I've moved on too, and you sound like you have the means to do so.

What is really sad are those who are left behind, who are not able to express themselves, or even fight for a decent livelihood because of the climate of fear, PAP policies, and more.

There are pockets of foreign culture especially in arena where raw human talent is needed and the government has zero ability in dominating it. eg. fashion, startups.

At the end of the day, make your own hay, support the opposition (even if they are infantile), eagerly look forward to the death of LKY, and change will arrive in Singapore. It's only a matter of time.

The other way is to be an expat in Singapore. You live in your own world.

Sameer said...

came accross your blog post from a friend.. been in New york studying and working for the past 3 years as a cook. been kinda scared to go back cause well, what you said in your blog is the reality. Cooking professionally so rarely recognised as a career but in New york, its something well respected. I wish sg would change its dam mind set instead of just pushing students to study numbers. Not all of em are book smart and have so much more to offer. i believe everyone kid should have an education but we should be able to branch out and nurture the passion that comes from within. Ive never been ashamed to say im a cook and im down right proud of it but i know the older generation thinks otherwise. FUCK WHAT SG THINKS! there are more and more of us rising now and stepping out side what is expected of singaporeans. And Angmos are not lazy.. sure they do dope and drink everyday, bt these Mfs are fucking creative and talented and free spirited.. GAAh.. im just sayin I KNOW WHAT YE MEAN!

Anonymous said...

"Ask not what your country can do for you - ask what you can do for your country." I realise the opposite is true for our younger generation, be it for their country, community, company, maybe even friends and family.

Some people spit at the devil, some shun them totally, some run away, while some choose to join them so as to change them. What will you choose?

The more years I spend away from Singapore, the urge to return becomes more intense. Perhaps spending a few years in a less developed country will open up your horizon further and make you understand Singapore is quite a piece of heaven after all.

Anonymous said...

FUCK YOU YOU FUCKING FUCK
1218

Shawn Ong said...

Well Said.. This is so fucking well said. Just to let you know you're definitely not alone here. :)

Chee Wai Lee said...

For what it is worth, I hope you manage to make your way out. Personally, there is a chance I might get sucked back into Singapore's gravity well soon. The USA may not be perfect, but there's always something that I can say or do to make it better ... even as a foreigner. I may have made many mistakes but I'll never regret my 13 years living here.

Good luck!

Aoi_Sora9x (A.S.) said...

When you are young, everything is so black and white. I think you need a bit more time to see that they are all just shades of grey.

Not like don't see where you come from, but your view, at least to me, is very extreme and short sighted.

Don't mind what I say too much. Just a random passersby.

Anonymous said...

hahaha hi mel shalyn here!!

strange, but its by pure coincidence i'm here. some fb friends shared this page.

haha anyways, go! go make the films everyone else's too afraid to make. be the one with balls. and call me if you might need any help!

Anonymous said...

I think you have a fair point, but after being overseas in the last couple of years, I see many things that we can appreciate Singapore for that many 'western' countries lack. You're a bit too harsh in my opinion. The government has given its citizens stability and security, which is sorely lacking in so-called developed nations. Who says there isn't any financial aid? There's heaps in the public education system. Uni courses are also subsidized. Anger does not give you a license to let loose, at least on a site that is public (even though its your blog). There's more to be desired, but i don't think SG is as bad as you make it seem to be.

Elements-Earth Wind & Fire said...

Refreshing to read your post. You say it like it is without any of the politically correct BS. As far as I'm concerned, you don't swear too much and yeah, people who think you do should fuck off and not read yr blog. Looking forward to more straight-talking posts. Cheers

tortugapoderosa said...

I came back to Singapore after living in the U.S. for close to a decade. I, initially, had the same reaction against the way things work here - the intrusive, absurd, and irrelevant questions about my background, the near lack of civic consciousness, the ham-fisted way in which government interacts with society, the prevailing patriarchal and misogynistic attitudes of many Singaporeans (men and women).

Yet, I think, your position - blame the government, love the people - absolves Singaporeans of their responsibility for this mess. Yes, the government shapes a lot of what goes on here, but it isn't a totalising force. Singaporeans patently don't march in lock step to what the government wants. For example:
- See the flourishing of LGBT groups here despite the proscriptions of 377A. My girlfriend and I (I'm a woman) are openly affectionate on Singapore's streets and we've never gotten harassed.
- See the refusal of Singaporeans to get married, stay married, and have babies, despite the cult of family here.
- See the refusal of many Singaporeans, like yourself, to stay rooted here, despite constant government campaigns to the contrary.
- Our voluntarism rates remain low despite government exhortations for us to volunteer, and despite the assumptions of neoliberal economics which make society responsible for filling the gap vacated by the refusal of government to provide social services.

Foucault's concept of governmentality posits two useful ideas here - 1) that power is only meaningfully applied against those who have the capacity to act differently, and 2) that the terms upon which power is enacted can be used in reverse by those who wish to resist that power.

Second (and,I suppose, this follows from the first), I think we need to be careful about adopting an "us vs them" attitude when it comes to society's relationship with the government. I had amazing teachers in school, but I also recognize that those teachers were there precisely because government policies enabled highly talented and intelligent individuals to consider teaching a career. Yes, your parents (and mine) invested a lot in my education - but that investment was made possible by government policies that skew income taxes in favor of the rich, and which under-provide for the poor. Both in a positive and a negative sense, this government has played a part in making us possible.

Anonymous said...

I completely agree with everything you've written here. As a Singaporean who migrated to American and is back to finish his NS, I have lost pretty much all my prior held affection for this country. Sure the people can be great but as a whole, I simply cannot stand it. It's a creative wasteland where any artist in any medium is doomed to rot and fail and the government is so backwards its almost fallacy to call our government a democracy.

Anonymous said...

I do agree with a few points you mentioned, but i'm notsure your choice of words are of good impact. you look lovely, how about cutting down of the f*** words?

Anonymous said...

Are you sure you "Aced" all your interviews? You sound like a high school student to me. Are you sure you went to western countries? I think you need to change your mindset. The world doesn't revolve around you. Stop ranting and CHANGE. You should be thankful that you are living in a peaceful country like Singapore. Be content with what you have.

Anonymous said...

Great post man. You're bang on target with just about everything you've mentioned.

I've long understood that the whole race/religion equality is a facade. As a kid, you grow up thinking "wow, these guys really do take care of us."

But before you know it...

Nicely done. I'm definitely going to be reading more of your stuff.

-Prash-

Anonymous said...

You've got some valid points about the economy and public behavior on trains and buses. But points 1, 4, 5, and 6 are pretty much valid anywhere else.

Anyway, if you're so unhappy about it, why not just leave?

Ponder Stibbons said...

Ahahaha. I can totally relate to this, especially point 2). It was only after leaving Singapore that I was able to recognise the racism and exploitation that makes Singapore tick.

Erwansah Abujiki said...

I totally agree with you. You have seen life pushing you around and now you want to take control of your life. I believe you have overcome you fears and you will become a wise person. I wish you happiness, health and wealth.

dfnheartcore.- said...

Im from malaysia and I respect you on this.

Andy said...

Haha brilliant post - had me laughing. Your right, Singapore is great as a holiday destination but not to live in for the long haul... Too many know it all's talking down to you from their soap box and with no life experiences of their own outside of the island. Tsk tsk....

I left Singapore 9 years ago and have never looked back since.... :O)

Anonymous said...

I used to be agirl scout too and I constantly being judged for that. You're the smartest girl scout I have ever known because you totally spoke up what I have always believed. Of how Singapore is totally depriving its people of the rights and of how the job interviews here are utter bullshit because they don't just access you solely based on your work performance. I used to write shit about how my school system sucks and I was FORCED to take them down despite it being all facts that everyone agrees on. This place lacks freedom. I'd love to leave this place and live elsewhere despite how this land have left me great memories for the past 17 years after I am done schooling. You're a fucking genius and I respect how you have the courage to voice them up.

LMX said...

You have just earned my respect. Kudos!

LMX said...

You have earned my respect.
Kudos !

Leon Xu said...

I'm a Singaporean who has worked and studied in Australia, the UK and the States for the past 7 years, I just happened to chance upon your post. While I discern where you are coming from, I still maintain that Singapore is a great place to live and work. Yes there is definitely a lack of freedom of expression and yes the government is omnipotent and omnipresent and it is justified that u seem to be frustrated at the lack of opportunities for your film career. But I see Singapore as a proving ground. A place where competition breeds competition and I cant wait to go back with my law degree and culinary school diploma. I know a good job (or even a job at all) does not necessarily beckon but I still miss rat race. I despise the laid back lifestyle even though I am the most laid back Singaporean u will possibly encounter.

Singapore makes me a better person, a citizen's citizen. My ideals of what a model citizen should be has be moulded by various jurisprudence texts and the writings of Aristotle, Plato and Socrates, and while it is somewhat lopsided and communistic, I believe that Singapore is an advanced centralist system, and a very good one indeed. I am tired of welfare benefits, people abusing the system and laziness that is the hallmark of your idea of a first world community. You cite examples of which are widely present in all the cities I've lived in over the past 7 years, so maybe you do not think Singaporeans are cultured and "barbaric", but I urge you to get on the new york subway or the london tube. Our definitions of barbarism may greatly differ but the frequent muggings and physical abuse as well as racial discrimination that permeates the public transport system in your "first world communities" perhaps could possibly be a starting point to reassess your vocabulary? Maybe you've been sheltered in your overseas experience thus far, but trust this old foggy who has slaved as a cook, waiter and kitchen hand, that the realities of being at the bottom of the food chain in these "first world" communities are not very "first world" at all.

I can go on about my experiences with interviews here, my years of part time work and the rigours of being an everyday man here, but that is not a story I choose to delve into, not here, not now at least. I respect that you have managed to incorporate some positive into the lifestyle here but in all honesty we both know that was just some fluff to buffer the negativeness of the post. I urge you to get a more holistic perspective and a better comparative view. This reply is by no means an armed derogation of your post, rather an overseas Singaporean view of the situation. Thats my bit of fluff.

P.S. Barendt's Freedom of Expression could be a good read.

Andrew said...

im not sure where the point was. u went from interview gripes to singapores' global standing before saying that you may be in New York by xmas. As if New York is some great beacon of human rights and non-corruption.

it feels like u are using ur personal problems for political grandstanding.

I do wonder if you'd feel this way if you had aced ur interviews and been offered a fabulously well paying job. i wonder if singapores' national problems would still grate at all.

I respect your right to rant,and some of what you point out is true in a very broad sense. if you want to critique in a useful manner however, there are many NGOs and business start-ups where u can change things in a concrete way.

as for filming, some of the best films ever made hv come from Iran (the makmalbafs) and Russia (alexander sokurov). production and distribution is also far less problematic in the digital age. you wont be making blockbusters, but the channels for ppl to see your work are there.

Delton said...

I couldn't have said it better. All the best in London.

Isabella said...

Totally agree with what you said. Singapore born, bred in US. Coming back here to work is a disaster (no choice, cuz of my grandmom). Can't wait to get my fucking ass back to US (: you go girl!

Isabella said...

Totally agree with what you said. Born in Singapore, bred in US. Coming back to work is indeed a disaster (can't help it though, granny commitment).

Can't wait to get my ass back to US in the next 2 years. You go girl, all the best to you!

Anonymous said...

Tried looking for your work on youtube, couldn't find it. Have it uploaded it anywhere else?

Zhi Shan(Sujata) said...

Well maybe you should drop by Malaysia in your free time and you may just see the same shit happening.

Anonymous said...

Wow. You sure do have a lot to learn about pretty much everything.

Jennifer

Anonymous said...

singapore is a country who dun allow ay of their citizen to earn more den prime ministers..prove..one name can own only own one property..singapore wants to promote baby boom..but e hse price n getting high..who wld even wan to get married n hv children? we work for a living nt for us but for singapore..

Iron Bowl said...

Many people refuse to wake up from this nightmare, and many give bad excuses not to leave. Shit is too.expensive and people are so materialistic. Come to nyc. Future is brighter there, even with the so called subprime.

Iron Bowl said...

Many people refuse to wake up from this nightmare, and many give bad excuses not to leave. Shit is too.expensive and people are so materialistic. Come to nyc. Future is brighter there, even with the so called subprime.

jay said...

1) what beaches?

2) Civilized and educated arent always congruent

Anonymous said...

Somehow I do feel the same way

Anonymous said...

hope you would leave this ON your blog for aeons and come back another 10 or 20 years later and reflect what you wrote.

Blessed!

Anonymous said...

IMO you are blaming the government way too much. There are several areas which are seriously similar around the world and really isn't particular to our country. And one of the reasons why our government controls several industries is obviously because our country is too damn small for a competitor to make a significance without aid from a bigger company, and yet we obviously haven't seen many radical film-makers around. No industry and no talent, what else do you expect?

Anonymous said...

fuck.

Anonymous said...

From the looks of it, you have been interviewing for a job in a local Government linked company, the public sector, or a local company. I've never had to fill up forms with such private information, nor put up with such intrusive questions, when I interviewed with MNC companies.

As a Singaporean Indian with an US Degree, I have learned the hard way. Don't bother applying for a job in the public sectors, GLCs or local companies. Your chances of being hired are very slim, as most of the HR, Finance and management layers are mostly Chinese and they control the racial composition very tightly (~ 90% Chinese, 2% Indian, 1% Malay, 7% others+foreigners).

My advice is to do your research and interview for jobs in MNCs where the management layers have a good proportion of foreigners and locals. In my experience, if the HR, Finance and Management don't have a majority local Chinese, you WILL NOT experience this type of fucking local bullshit.

There are fantsatic companies with great working culture, wonderful staff camaraderie and where you are respected and nurtured for your talent. Your race, skin color and family connections are not important/irrelevant You just need to look for the signs.

Anonymous said...

I thought I just read about myself. Keep it up!

Anonymous said...

You obviously have been altered by living abroad, you seem to be quite well balanced.

Kitscully said...

Try Living in Malaysia.. lol

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Anonymous said...

15 was a damn good film though.

Errik Wong said...

I totally get your beef with the SGov and that's why I'm doing my best to continue working here (in London, as a designer.) Many of my friends who have had to go back home and work within the creative industry are finding it hard to attain any form of inspiration, not just due to cultural claustrophobia and tunnel-vision politics but also the strangling effects of the local censors/mass media. Let's just make sure the next election brings about a revolution. Every vote counts!

Anonymous said...

I lived in Singapore for a year with my Singaporean wife. We're both much happier here in London.

If it makes you feel any better... the rest of the world is heading the way of Singapore. Fuck :(

Anonymous said...

Hey lady, try being a Malay living in Singapore. Fairness, equality? Impossibru.

Paranoid Addiction said...

You know, you have state your points and I agree with some of the pointers. Nowadays, Singapore is becoming a country where everybody will have to work 24/7. I am not surprise if one day, everyone becomes Robots with no social life. Now, that is scary.

I like your outspoken attitude and the usage of excessive vulgarity is so cool !!
Nonetheless, I wish you all the best and explore the world Melissa. Singapore is not the only country where you have to stay.

Anonymous said...

Having been around the world, and at one point seriously considered moving to Japan (for work) and Australia (for love), I concluded that Singapore is the best place to live. It's easy to start a business here, taxes are low and the entire Singapore system is quite efficient for most of the part. I am in the creative industry too however I don't see Singapore being stifling to my craft. I started the first of my businesses when I was 23, while I was still working in a Singaporean company.

1) You are right, this is not ancient China! We shouldn't give up our seats to the elderly without questioning how they earned it in the first place. Age? Pshhh... It pisses me off greatly when old people get a seat. I'm the one who barged into trains and buses first, so based on meritocracy, shouldn't *I* be the one with my ass on the seat?

2) Why doesn't anyone ask me about MY white boyfriend at interviews? Teach me, master.

3) I remember those forms. As a Chinese Singaporean, you have to go through all that too? It should be reserved for people of a certain ethnic groups, don't you think? By the way, at which page do you fill in about white boyfriends?

4) -Intentionally left blank to prevent interruption-

5) No shit, my boyfriend was a scout. Is this why he tends to break into song when he's in the vicinity of open flames? What else do I need to know about scouts?

6) See point 2.

Three people shaped my life.

The first person, my primary school teacher -- she taught me that there's always hope for a change, even in the dimmest of students (I was in the "slow" class).

The second, my dad -- he taught me the power of sarcasm (see points above).

The third, is the Ultra Hipster love of my life, who said -- "It's easy to be a fucking sheep and blame the system for everyone being a fucking sheep."

Okay, I will fuck off now.

Anonymous said...

Well I think live in SG still much better than living in Indonesia... but if u are westener I think still got that respect... I write this because not only my own opinion but yeah I live there 1 year+ to study... I think not all people there like that, but in worst case maybe u just 'luckky' enuff to meet those bastards...

Anonymous said...

Please do leave and make good films elsewhere.

You're not entirely wrong, but like some of the people who commented, I feel that you were simply blaming EVERYTHING on the government. Throwing in profanities after every few words does not make it any more convincing but instead rather whinny and immature (but swearing may be your style, so I won't say more).

Every country has her own problems. At least the government tries to make Singapore a safe and financially stable environment to live in. Sure, it is not perfect. Neither is London.

Honestly, when I read your post, I thought you were younger than me.

Pasonia said...

Just saying, I find it easier to dispense kindness to people during my stay in Seattle, compared to my whole life staying in Singapore.

Your post exactly doles out everything I had in my mind.

Unknown said...

Total AGREEMENT!
Finally some backslash and similar views

Anonymous said...

Holy fuck you are hilarious.

Mark Envy said...

Yea, join the club. We have jackets. I absolutely hate this country. I was forced to come here when I was 4, grew up constantly being picked on for being the only 'White' kid in my school when I'm actually mixed.

I had no choice but to grow up here. When I moved here with my grandparents, the government shoved a Singapore passport in my hands and said, "In 17 years time you will have to fight for our country!" Was I given a choice? NO! Now I'm facing jail time and a $70000 fine for not wanting to do my National Service! All this because they said that this country has brought me up and raised me from a baby. BULLSHIT! You don't see a picture of the prime Minister cradling me as a child do you?! My grandparents brought me up from scratch.

I just want to move back to London and stay there with my mother. At least out there, it's a fair playing field. Is that too much to ask?!

Andrew Goutama said...

After reading your post, i have to agree that singapore need to change the way things are run. But at the same time, you have to realize that each individual country have their own law/culture and ways of doing things. You talk about freedom of speech, do you know that in the whole world only USA have that ? It is ridiculous how you complain about singapore, and comparing to other country/nation. Look, every country is different, and yes, i do agree that Singapore is ridiculous to a certain point as you noted, but grow up. Seriously... if everyone in Singapore really want it to change, PAP would not have won so years in a row.

The Famous Blue Coat said...

O.o Fuckfuckingfuck weird language...do you suffer Tourette syndrome? I stopped reading carefully your post after first paragraph, then stopped completely after second: "2) Used the fact I've studied and worked overseas against me. I.e. You can't fit into the culture because you have been westernized and Singaporeans value efficiency whereas Western people are too laid-back and unproductive. Also, there is the whole "How do you think your white boyfriend will impact on your image and lifestyle?" - YES THIS HAS COME UP IN INTERVIEWS 3 TIMES" Who on earth used again'st you the fact you studied overseas, lol come on you are 24 years old you are everything but WESTERNIZED, this entry only shows that it's on contrary O.o I'm not sure I got your point right in here, but..eh. Only thing I understood, an obvious thing is that Singapore "got no human rights", I assumed you meant to say Singapore did not sign The Universal Declaration of Human Rights, I hope yes that's what you meant to say.. As for the rest is like a silly rant of a 6 years old not too smart kid. I kind of feel guilty reading your "about me" that you are influenced by a "WESTERN CULTURE", but on the other hand healthy mind is telling me "nah..." you are influenced by a lack of culture, whatever let it be western or eastern. To me, you are totally typical Singaporean girl, on of the crowd and peeps like you actually painting a picture of this place before my very eyes (westerner eyes that is)and this is stuff I'd like to be gone from here for good, otherwise your country gonna be soon cast in plastic cube of empty nothing and shopping sprees. And yeah to me you are totally not westerner, more like totally Asian girl from Singapore O.o and meh... you are that darkin' part of this place and your entry only proves it, to me you are Singapore, but this Singapore I don't like, defaced, plastic, arrogant, ignorant, cold and washed out of culture, understanding, and those things called human rights (sic!),humane feelings ya knoe little girl? Cheers from the angmoh! P.S. I'd like to bounce back at ya your shout out, WAKE THE FUCK UP, GIRL!"

Ray said...

You just earned my respect for your view point. Looks like we're not alone after all.

Ray said...

You just earned my respect for your view point. Looks like we're not alone after all.

Jeremy Fuckin Wright. said...

To anyone who opposes this post, or hypocritically agrees, I say fuck you too. :) Kudos to Melissa

MJ said...

Blah blah blah... If you're that unhappy, then GTFO singapore.

Anonymous said...

oh no not another privileged mindless cretin who's jumping on the "oh let's blame the government for everything that's wrong in Singapore" bandwagon.

Peppering your speech with expletives isn't an indication of your your presumed backbone or willingness to stand up against the powers that be - rather it exposes all the holes argument where you're failing to fill with anything remotely substantive.

I hate people who rant on about "freedom of speech" and a "free press" without realizing that such freedoms have to go hand in hand with social responsibility and an awareness that what you say can have tangible effects on the people around you. Unfettered freedom of speech disconnected from social responsibility leads to things like the racial violence, hate speech and bible/koran burning of the garden variety found in the decidedly more liberal US of A. I'm not saying that freedom of speech is a bad thing and I'm all for reduced restrictions in what we can and cannot say but making our country sound like an oppressive dictatorship is disingenuous and just downright wrong.

Sad thing is you're probably going to get a whole bunch of people agreeing with your vacuous arguments. I'm usually on the political fence with it comes to talking about Singapore but I was so incensed after reading your ridiculous blog and I had to say something, though in all probability, these lines will go unnoticed buried under the other 100 comments that your drivel has (undeservedly) garnered.

Anonymous said...

all the holes in your argument*

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KKL said...

That's society is for you, and it surely isn't a government's fault that the people are such. It is society that shape them up this way, unlike the totally skewed (ill)logic you put forth. I sincerely hope you grow up soon. Everywhere you go, that is the real world. If you can't stand it, then get out of this world, not Singapore. Well, in any way, my country has no place for immature, self-centered brats like you.

And to the rest of you here, are we becoming a country of dissidents like you? Well, no government can please everyone. If you're unsatisfied, why not stage a rally to overthrow the government and try being one yourself? I'm not defending our incumbent; we can apply this situation in failed states too. Continue your negative sentiments, and we'll see ourselves in the leagues of Libya and Iran.

Anonymous said...

The grass is greener on the other side because I'm being starved here by my very own government. Most grass here is reserved for those who already have aplenty and for undeserving imports.

Any grass will appear greener.

DBL said...

I feel your passion and you are so damn right. I too want to make films but it is so hard to excel in an industry where idiots and stupid people with brains up in their asses rule the world.

Maybe some day we could work together to create something different.

Anonymous said...

Freedom of speech? My friend, it is people like you who want freedom of speech but cannot accept the fact that every individual is different. If you think conforming to your way of thinking or speaking is freedom, then you're clearly mistaken. This is exactly what the singaporean government is about. And you my friend are a drone who wants to conform to their way of speaking. I say, grow a set of balls or sit the fuck down, cover your ears and let others do the fighting for freedom of speech!

Anonymous said...

u fucking love this ?
den y dont u just speak like her, y must u still use all the ******
fucking love this but dont dare to tell people who r u?
mai lame la, fucker
some of the points she said is true, but one thing can tell is she is kinda of self-centered, everything also came from her point of benefit first!!!!!!!!!

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healfactor said...

Yes, I agree mostly except no.1 & 6. Sometimes you just have to accept criticism to better yourself and prove people wrong. Asian culture is based on respecting elders, doesn’t mean you have agree with them. Instead of getting birthday conflict with your bf with work, why don't we all get a free day pass on our Bday instead (or a day pass on the weekday if ur bday fall on weekend)? That just doesn't exist in any country. Wishful thinking. WTH Medical bills? Singapore subsidize and ensure everyone deserve a priority in health with the universal insurance law. America is only starting to mandate medical insurance in 2014; American had mandate car insurance but not health insurance before. Their citizen has been risking their health cost due to the overpriced medical bills. Basically their car's health is much important than themselves. Being a film chick you need to watch the film documentary called Sicko to talk smack about government not helping Singaporean. There is some truth in what you said. It refreshing to have someone point out those facts but sometime the glass always look greener on the other side doesn't mean it's true.No matter where you live there’s always pros and cons. I love Singapore it always close at heart. Being someone who live in the USA for 4 years and is coming back to Singapore very soon , I find an intrigue urge to read this interesting blog post . As similar as you i been told by people as usual elders (==) I have been influenced by western culture to much.

Anonymous said...

JUST MIGRATE AND DIE IN SOME OTHER BACKWARD COUNTRY. How about Africa? Good enough? Which country isn't complaining about its govt? Just because of a few rude individuals, you assume the Singaporean culture is like that. I've NEVER experiened any of your situtations. Anyway if you are so great a person, you should learn to take all these problems in stride. This sentence not happy that thing not happy, then don't live lor. There are people with bigger problems than you. no money, no health, paralyzed, etc. so, GET OUT OF SINGAPORE. we dont need negative people like you who take offence at everything. go to america or china or whatever to make your films. dont come back.

Anonymous said...

So young, so angry...........damn those rap music

Anonymous said...

Typical Singapore brat...you are the product of Singapore Government...A brat..whine..whine..complain..complain...If you are a dedicated filmmaker..it doesn't matter if your film get banned here..you will make it...THink Zhang Yimou, internationally acclaimed director who have made great films...many got banned in China, but did it stop him from making films in China about China?.. No!Where is he now? China loves him. One of the China's greatest filmmakers. If you are crap, you are crap. stop whinning..and do something. If a backward 3rd world country like IRAN can made many great films..what is stopping you? Whine about not having money...blah blah blah....If a film has great story and great vision, you don't need more than a million dollars to made one....unless you wanna start with an epic with lotsa special effects, I believe it can be done...

Anonymous said...

Grow a pair!!

Anonymous said...

Singapore is great. Even if the government and culture not placing enough emphasis on arts, if you are good enough there will always be a job for you. After being for countless interviews without getting a job, perhaps you are just not good enough at the moment or you just don't have the talent.

Anonymous said...

Wow your pretty good at blaming :)

Notice how truly **awesome and creative people** never have the need to do that?

Take a pill, might help.

Vinod Chandar said...

Hi Melissa

I applaud and congratulate you for having the self image, confidence and courage to stand up for your own values and take no bullshit. Many will probably just give in weakly and take the CEO's word as the truth and probably live a life of quiet desperation. I am glad u did not do that either because assertiveness and being bold always pays off.

However, I assure you for that you are going plenty of bosses like him. I have been through plenty so I understand how you feel.

Which is why I would suggest you be your own boss and start your own enterprise like I have. As an entrepreneur I set and play by my own rules & values. And I do not take bullshit from anyone either.

Just a suggestion, Melissa.

Anonymous said...

Win!

Anonymous said...

Hmm you seem to exhibit the characteristics of a so-called "typical" Singaporean. From the things you have said, it seems like you are a brave and courageous girl who is not afraid to speak her mind.

Why not go for it and speak your mind directly to the government? Why curse, swear and complain behind your monitor? Unless.. you are kind of afraid of them too?..

Anonymous said...

Win!

Paul Ho said...

Leaving all the profanity aside, which I totally agree is your right to use, I am in total agreement with you there. People are kept in the hamster wheel to cope with ever-increasing prices. The government realises that once people takes their mind off the rat race, it will be the day the reign of these anal copulating penises will also end.

Aaron said...

Phoa.

Best part is I'm a Singaporean reading this and I agree with you.

Say it like it is!

Chew Boon Shiang said...

Well Said! But dun bother about the waking up part. It just won't happen, at least not in the next 10years.

Anonymous said...

First time posting here but why did you remove certain comments? Although I don't know what those people said but no "freedom of speech"? Expressing themselves and getting their comments "deleted by the author" - maybe you've rlly been in Spore for too long... Whatever it was i dont know: hate comments/personal attacks or anything else... but i just find it ironic, that's all.

I agree with some parts but find A LOT of it ironic actually.

Becool73 said...

U FUCK nut. The government does everything for their benefit, so why the FUCK can't we want selfish benefits. It's dim wits like you who still let this country feed to the blood suckling dogs.

Becool73 said...

U FUCK nut. The government does everything for their benefit, so why the FUCK can't we want selfish benefits. It's dim wits like you who still let this country feed to the blood suckling dogs.

Anonymous said...

Be more grateful

Anonymous said...

Young foolish brat who thinks that she is Queen just by getting through an interview. Wait till you stay at the job for years and survive and rise to the top then I will applaud. What makes you think New York is a cooler place than Singapore? What you been doing is being a leech to your parents and living off them. Have you paid back your tuition fees to them? Have your contributed to your family expenses? If not how are you contributing to this country which you grew up in? Nobody owes you anything. You owe others a lot. The money your parents earn is a product of this economy that Singapore has built. Have you read a newspaper lately? Do you know what is happening in the world? What is the headline today?

Stay and make a real difference inside of whining about it. Losers whine and quit their relationships/companies/countries and only blame the other party instead of reflecting on their own actions.

Don't be a phony and delete this comment just because it doesn't sit well with you.

Anonymous said...

I must say, I've gone through multiple job interviews and at I've never had to talk about my boyfriend. I wonder why yours keeps coming up in interviews.

Dewayne said...

Well, the grass is always greener on the other side. Until you crossover the fence and step on the cow dung. The point is if you don't like to be socially restraint you can only find peace in a cave alone as a hermit. Somehow someone somewhere is going to try to put you down but if you explode and cannot come to terms with it, you'd probably be miserable forever.

Anonymous said...

The problem is not about stopping complains and become a patriotic citizen. The problem about making a stand to the government. Yes , we must support our country to an extend therefore it can drive itself to further development. However, it is the PEOPLE who drive this country. Therefore the welfare of the PEOPLE always come first. At times, when we make this kind of remarks to persuade the government, the government will deny it, or say it is unreasonable. Reason being, if Singaporeans actually got a Hold what actions must be carried out by the government, it might "overthrow" the authorities. That is what the government thinks. The government WANTS to be the head of the state and RULE the country. Nuff said. Especially in such small country, the government can manage to make use of this advantage to control the country. WHY? Who don't want to be working for the government? Good pay man. What i can say is, i don't see any movement at all in the social lives of Singaporeans. The price of living is evidently increasing. How is it suppose to keep its citizens. If there be any forums or such to discuss about Singapore, do invite me in. The government must be with the people, not with the money.

Jack said...

Dear Mdm your criticism is epic. I'm loving it. great points raised nonetheless :)

Anonymous said...

LOL! Girl just shut your trap like acting so cool in overseas! LOL! So is my sister when overseas, yes you may nail it right but still what makes you so different from the unclivlices acts? LOLL! Don't point your finger at someone else when you're doing the exact same thing -.- LOL! Anyways that's not the point i know you did mention something like oo hate it please fuck off, ha! It's a democratic socity so im speaking for what i want, so don't say things like ooo didnt i said don't like it leave?

Anonymous said...

So, are daddy and mommy paying for your air ticket to New York? Are they paying for your white boyfriend's one too?

Edy HeartRock said...

WOhOOOOOOOO YEsss BIG WIN...... and they will call you a REBEL for sure demonized your every move. But I say your brave for speaking your rights. HEy I am a film MAker too. JUst graduated from IAFT. But it's been 2 months and film making here totally sucks or even zero nothing at all. We should get to know share ideas and shit.

if you need to look for me I have FACEbook named Edy HeartRock, vimeo and youtube.

Anonymous said...

And your point is? What a tool pssh

Isabella said...

The government is the government - big, bureaucratic, with almost no individual responsibility. I've met MDA officers who are fighting to reduce the censorship, unfortunately there is massive pressure from 'above' preventing them from daring to push too far - civil service employees usually have a lot to lose for simply speaking out -

Anonymous said...

you're lucky, 'cos you are not born a guy, who can't leave this country that ruled by that yayapapaya Lee family, for good.

if possible, i would definitely leave this country, 'disowning' myself from the motherfucking-land.

enjoy the world my friend ;)

Isabella said...

The government is the government - big, bureaucratic, with almost no individual responsibility. I've met MDA officers who are fighting to reduce the censorship, unfortunately there is massive pressure from 'above' preventing them from daring to push too far - civil service employees usually have a lot to lose for simply speaking out -

Anonymous said...

It sounds like you're going for job interviews at Singaporean companies that may or may not be government-linked (it doesn't matter either way, but government-controlled ones tend to be worse.) That could be part of the problem. I got fed up of the interviews (and the mindless jobs, and lack of life, and bitchiness of Singaporean colleagues) at Singaporean companies, so...I interviewed at MNCs. Problem solved - at none of the MNC interviews or in my current job do I face the issues I had at Singaporean interviews and in Singaporean jobs - being condescended to, being talked over, being told what I thought and felt was wrong when asked for my opinion, being expected to work overtime (no-pay) AND study for a further degree (out of pocket) if I ever wanted to be promoted (is it just me, or do these two seem almost mutually exclusive?), being reprimanded for bringing up systematic problems, being shunned because I do my work properly and thus "spoil the market", being criticised because I don't like to turn in work that I know is imperfect, being overloaded because my colleagues know they'll get the same pay and won't get fired regardless of how much or how little they work, but I can't bear to see the disaster in the making - and in the end they get the perks and bonuses and promotions because they look and sound good.

Now...even though technically the job title is a step down, I'm exercising my brain (and getting paid) way more than before, and not only that, I'm expected to do my best but I'm not penalised if I don't quite meet the mark - they'll work with me to figure out what I can do better. They also encourage me to see and raise problems and not accept things the way they are just because "that's how it's always been."

The best part is something so small that I didn't even realise I missed it till the first time it happened - people thank me for doing my job. It's amazing how a simple "thank you" can make you so much more motivated to do well. I don't know if it'd be a satisfactory replacement for a raise, but it really helps job satisfaction to know your work is noticed and appreciated. After years of criticism at worst and no-comment at best, it's just...nice to hear.

All that said, every country has their problems, and I think you'll find that NYC has its own issues - the transport sucks, the homeless problem is pretty bad, crime is through the roof, America in general has real weather and thus natural disasters, and it's a popular target for terrorism and other such attacks. I guess the question is which you can live with, and which you can't.

Michelle said...

I do think that there is some credence in the way you have described the expectations of deference and the unscholastic behaviour of your interviewers. And if you were as brave as to accuse the older generation of being lacking in civilities and grace, I cannot help but concur that indeed a significant portion of those might have been lacking in a more well-rounded education (by this, I mean mannerisms and social graces).

However, notably these refer to matters of commerce. I hardly think one so disposed to think ill of the government should simultaneously impute the responsibility over the private sector to politicians. This lamentable defect seems attributable to the collective private persons who partake in the business sector. And personally, I would rather not have the government over-intrude in the private sector with equalities and disabilities questionnaires and the like.

I think the same can be said for your allegations of what I may reminisce as "Auntie" behaviour. Barging into the train doors is an occurrence all too familiar - I am residing in Paris at the moment by the way. But this is perhaps the fault of the people at large. And if there were a political response, likely a campaign advising more gracious behaviour, then I have reason to believe that such governmental intervention into ordinary civilian life would be likewise bashed by the very same commenters above.

In addition, I'm not too certain I wish the government to "do more for me" in the way you have described. It reeks unsustainable welfarism that I am all too familiar with. I don't wish for a NHS waiting list of months for a simple visit to the doctors or more urgently, have to wait for a year or more for treatment of more serious diseases.

For my part, I'd much rather retain the capitalist system that had spurned the great economies of the world than to adopt a welfarist one that had led to the decline of these same nations.

And because I quite believe even tempered speech may justly be published without any further reservations of censorship or ensuing political trouble, I shall sign off with my name rather than follow the example of those before me who have championed the freedom of expression but daren't own to it.


Sincerely,
Michelle

Anonymous said...

Please keep your citizenship, the opposition needs your vote.

Not everyone can afford to emigrate.

And you don't need to pay taxes on overseas income.

Michelle said...

I do think that there is some credence in the way you have described the expectations of deference and the unscholastic behaviour of your interviewers. And if you were as brave as to accuse the older generation of being lacking in civilities and grace, I cannot help but concur that indeed a significant portion of those might have been lacking in a more well-rounded education (by this, I mean mannerisms and social graces).

However, notably these refer to matters of commerce. I hardly think one so disposed to think ill of the government should simultaneously impute the responsibility over the private sector to politicians. This lamentable defect seems attributable to the collective private persons who partake in the business sector. And personally, I would rather not have the government over-intrude in the private sector with equalities and disabilities questionnaires and the like.

I think the same can be said for your allegations of what I may reminisce as "Auntie" behaviour. Barging into the train doors is an occurrence all too familiar - I am residing in Paris at the moment by the way. But this is perhaps the fault of the people at large. And if there were a political response, likely a campaign advising more gracious behaviour, then I have reason to believe that such governmental intervention into ordinary civilian life would be likewise bashed by the very same commentators above.

In addition, I'm not too certain I wish the government to "do more for me" in the way you have described. It reeks unsustainable welfarism that I am all too familiar with. I don't wish for a NHS waiting list of months for a simple visit to the doctors or more urgently, have to wait for a year or more for treatment of more serious diseases.

For my part, I'd much rather retain the capitalist system that had spurred the great economies of the world than to adopt a welfarist one that had led to the decline of these same nations.

And because I quite believe even tempered speech may justly be published without any further reservations of censorship or ensuing political trouble, I shall sign off with my name rather than follow the example of those before me who have championed the freedom of expression but daren't own to it.


Sincerely,
Michelle

Anonymous said...

Exactly! People these days don't know how to count their blessings. Why, just the other day, I had to tell off an amputee beggar to be thankful that he still had a street to sleep on.

Anonymous said...

Nice one there Melissa! The blunt truth about singapore! (Y)

Anonymous said...

Sure, we have a bunch of overpaid, under performing people in government. Majority of Singaporeans are parochial - not by choice but largely by circumstances (mainly being less fortunate than you?). Anyone could complain and bitch. Being vile does not help any body or yourself. The central theme of your blog seems to be ME ME ME. What could you do for others?; for society? These couple of minutes I spent on your blog has the sole intention of being a sign post in your life journey. You could ignore it, or you could stop to ponder a moment and decide if it could help you find your way to your life's destiny.
There is a lot to be said for being patient, magnanimous and gracious with others.
Pay it forward.

Anonymous said...

Stop whinning and wake up my dear girl 'cos if not for the government, we would be speaking Japanese now !!!

Anonymous said...

"Almost all Chinese people I know do not even bother about the rights and freedom the government has taken away from us,"

Why is it anytime the discussion of humans rights, fighting for rights, ethics and democracy comes around, everyone just assumes ALL Chinese people have it built into their DNA to ignore the importance of these topics?

Are we forgetting Taiwan, its fight for democracy and attempts to preserve it? And also Hong Kong, where migrant domestic workers CAN and HAVE unionised.

And if anyone wants to argue the Confucianism theory (popular with 'Asian' leaders), then let's look at the not too distance Chinese cousins, the Koreans. South Korea, after the partition, and the Seoul Olympics fought their way for democracy within the South Korean state which despite the partition, was an authoritarian state (the irony). Now, they are yet another example of democracy at work in the East Asian region.

South East Asians are terribly blind to the actual nuances of the ethnic Chinese diaspora. Immigrant Chinese (with which Singapore and Malaysia are populated by), like all immigrants may tend to value dollars and scents over ideals. Sometimes this attitude gets carried along one too many generations.

If you study the Jewish diaspora, you may spot a pattern. Does this mean Jewish communities care about nothing other than dollars and scents?

So no, it isn't an ethnicity issue.

Anonymous said...

I love

Anonymous said...

I cant believe I found someone who thinks the same way about SG as I do and dare to express it !!!! I have tolerated SG for 35 years. I just sold my biz for a loss coz SG is the worst place in the world for SME. I am planning to leave Singapore next year with my daughter in tow but I promised my parents that I will come back when they are older. Its not going to be easy to start afresh in a foreign country but its still better than putting up with all the shit here !!!

Falke said...

Reading through some of the comments left by other fellow Singaporeans, to shame that I currently call them as such, shows exactly how blind and oblivious they are to the facts that are presented in their eyes.

They believe too much of the lies that the Government says and the ignore the truths that others might have dug out.

The community here in Singapore is also rather barbaric. We have citizens not wanting to take up meagre jobs, and letting foreigners take up their slots, ending up with us complaining about them invading Singapore.

We have commuters being less than graceful and polite to others on the topic of public transport.

Then there's the case where some old cabbies who would purposely evade the non-peak hour, to go gamble or play mahjong, only appearing once peak hour starts.

Hell, even though I've been living in Singapore throughout my whole 20 years of age, I, serving National Service now, have never found anything worth protecting in this corrupt land.

Alas it's only the tourists' point of view that's displayed to the world.

P.S. Hope everything goes smoothly with your plans to New York!~ ^^

Anonymous said...

In before she gets forced to apologize to the government or get sued

Anonymous said...

fuck singapore. i love u melissa

nick said...

CAN WE SONGIFY THIS, WE SHOULD SONGIFY THIS HAHAHHA NO SINGAPOREAN HAS EVER DONE THAT SO LETS SONGIFY THIS :D

---Nico TurboNerd Latte !!!

Anonymous said...

You're just insecure.nobody will judge u for being a cook here in Singapore.i respect that you're hardworking and doing what u love.dont generalize Singaporeans just cause of your insecurities

Anonymous said...

Well said

nick said...

CAN WE SONGIFY THIS, WE SHOULD SONGIFY THIS HAHAHHA NO SINGAPOREAN HAS EVER DONE THAT SO LETS SONGIFY THIS :D

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http://soundcloud.com/clownpants-1/r-ndom-t-pe

Anonymous said...

Well said.

Nick said...

Awesome post you have there. I am a singaporean as well and i totally agree with what you had just said. I too hate this country to the core and hope that one day i'll be able to leave this land. But that day is still long from now as i am still schooling and have to complete 2 years of NS which is a waste of time. Anyways i hope you'll be able to leave this shit hole and good luck in your future endeavor.

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Anonymous said...

Please, by all means put your money where your mouth is and give up your citizenship. Just don't come barging back 20 years down the road when the rest of us have striven to make our home a better place, while try your best to become a "member" of another land (I'm guessing the US or the UK) that probably has far more than its fair share of social and political problems.

Oh by the way, who really cares who owns the media here? Everyone's free to access foreign news souces. And last I heard, you're allowed to air your views freely on online platforms. Yes, even local ones. So what's this lack of freedom of speech you're talking about? You don't really know what you're unhappy about, do you? You're just bitter and you're not even thinking carefully about the source of your bitterness.

It's amazing enough that our generation can live in a place like Singapore, considering the cesspool that it was 50 years ago. Our current government may have its flaws but the fact that the vast majority of us could enjoy a certain standard of life is a strong indication that SOMETHING WORKED. The saddest fact is that you HAVE been a beneficiary of this magical formula, but you are denouncing it so confidently now.

Have a good think-through about your life and everything that has and has not happened to you as a Singaporean thus far, you silly little girl.

How Kar Koh said...

Hi Melissa!

Perhaps this guy "Namewee" Can help to give you some idea? Do watch his 1st and 2nd video on how he fight for his dream in making film in M'sia. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TYH3aUT_VwQ&feature=plcp

The difficulties may be different from SG but the level is around the same I guess... Hope this help you out! Jia you jia you!! =)

Anonymous said...

Well said

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Anonymous said...

THANK YOU!! SOMEONE SPEAKS ENGLISH without being censored by government policies and their constant need to be an -oh-so perfect world. i swear when i saw this. i wanted to applaud.

I will now support your blog.

*note to government* this is a blog if u were trying to censor my tone. blogging is freedom of speech

m.p

Dominic said...

The ignorance has gone so much to your brain, I'm younger than you and i can see how ridiculous your article speaks of your horrendous warped, tiny intellect.The only reason why you have little money is because, well you didn't work hard enough and you're angry at life, Meritocracy, reward for work and work for reward. Ever Heard of that? Stop complaining about a system, THAT WORKS and look at all the countries that are in so much deeper shit than we are, Majority of the Singaporeans want to feel safe, and that's what the government has given us. Look at Syria, the government is so corrupted, all the blood spilt over such a dumb thing. If only there are lesser people like you who complain, and just appreciate what the government has done for us.

Anonymous said...

You go girl! Thumbs up!

Anonymous said...

To all those whos defending this glutton of a mother which y'all call singapore, suck a dick hot bb and come get this gwap u lil'fuckboys.

Eugene W. said...

This blog post just went viral for some reason on Facebook. And I hope you can withstand the immense backlash and support at the same time regarding this blog post. Haters will always be haters. Fellow Singaporean here! :D

Agree with you to a certain extent about Singapore's vicious cycle. Daily costs are rising slowly, but surely. While salary levels stay the same (fuck me right)..

While we do have a surprisingly rich, self-centered, dictatorship govt and profit-gleaming transport/media companies, we do have a unique national identify though. It's all about the little things. (Uncles and aunties at the coffee shop, primary/secondary sch kids laughing & having a good time)

Although you cannot wait to get out of Singapore and go to NYC, pls do consider coming back time to time to check up on things.

Singapore won't be the same for very long ;)

Anonymous said...

Hey Melissa,

I got a song which you might wanna relate to. It's from a local group here in Singapore. I believe in this song they voiced out their opinion through the song "Conspiracy". And they certainly did a good job to make it look as "poker face" as possible with the humor they inserted in the video. Check them out! Here's the link-

Anonymous said...

Typical Gen Y mindset. Know it all attitude with too much ego and non-existent humility. Really... what do you really know? Probably not alot based on the rant I just read.

Acing interviews is no big deal. The real test comes when you get the job and do a fantastic job and add value. This is impossible if you don't have a good attiude. I pity the employer that gets you.

If your character really reflects the post I just read, unfortunately the odds are that your life will probably be full of complaining, fault finding and disappointments in which its is everyone else's fault.

Good luck and for sincerely your own sake, pls change and be better (advice probably falling on deaf ears).

Anonymous said...

There seemed to be a problem in putting links here. I can only give directions. Go to YouTube. Search for TheAtticGenesis. The song title is "Conspiracy". I love it! I'm sure you will too!

Kai Cui said...

Hi Melissa,

I'm originally from BX, NYC and I've gotta say, you nailed the issues here in Singapore. The lack of freedom of ANYTHING as a matter of fact has stunted the creativity and social growth in Singapore. If it wasn't for my current job here, I'll move back to the Bronx in a heartbeat with my family irregardless of the 3am gun shots and W train robberies. Sometimes as I walk through the streets of Singapore, there are strangers with attitudes that makes me want to manhandle them like how i dealt with my shit in the Bronx. (dead nigga on the block)

Anonymous said...

typical strawberry generation.

Anonymous said...

Seriously, how about you go fuck yourself and think, oh it is good to be fucked.

You are better off in America where people like you no need to go to work and still get paid. Singapore doesn't need you. You can go to the country that you need with your parents if they approve of you.

Strawberry generation. Fuck you

Anonymous said...

Quote: Singapore is the only country in the world I know who has legitimised corruption.

I think you have made an error here. It should be:

Singapore is the only COMPANY in the world I know who has legitimised corruption.

kthxbye

YL said...

Hello ma'am,

I agree with some of the points you have presented here. Singapore is a very conservative country and civil and political rights are very limited. However, what the Singapore Government practices here is what I would like to term 'pragmatic capitalism'. Singapore's government is very capitalistic in nature but yet is not as democratic as the Western States. However, this grip on power has enabled Singapore to advance by ensuring that there is one leader with a coherent and attainable goal in mind of Singapore. Democracy and freedom of speech is not a one size fit all thing as you believe it is. Democracy, if not implemented in ideal conditions, can be just as destructive as any dictatorship. You brought out some points about certain policies of the PAP, such as the Miniser's pay etc which I felt were rather valid. However, i felt that the accusations hurled at Singapore's national healthcare system is very unfair. If you studied economics, you would have realized that Singapore's healthcare system is brilliant and reliable for a nation which spends such a small percentage of its GDP on it, compared to countries like the US which spends 17% of its annual GDP on healthcare.
Every nation has its own black sheep, such as inconsiderate people on the train etc, but labeling the entire population as barbarians seem to be a bit too extreme.
I do, however, agree that the history syllabus of our MOE is very marginalized and offers a one sided perspective of our history.
In conclusion, I feel that you have raised some valid points here but there are certain unjustified accusations in this post as well and I urge you to rethink it by taking things into context.

Regards,
YL

tauhuayboy said...

You are weak minded, courage-less and you also have a filthy mouth.

I challenge you to go through NS. Then tell me which is worse, NS or the Singapore you are complaining about.

If not, don't let the whole world read the thoughts coming out air-head.

Thank you

tran said...

Hi madam, I love your post. I love your way of expressing it is full of emotion. Hey, head up at least you are heading to somewhere outside of Singapore. :)
Hope you be able to smile and have your coffee + beer somewhere else that is cheap!! :)
Glad to know someone who is brave.

areshaonline said...

I felt the same. I wondered if it was just me because everyone else does such a good job at just flowing with the stream having a big 'like dat lor' smile on their face.

So i left. Which wasn't easy because they don't make it easy to leave. And having to feel like I had to leave for it all to make sense was painful as my family and friends are all back in Singapore.

But we don't have options. We're not supposed to have options. Hence why we're not supposed to question or be in a position to know HOW and WHAT to question.

The world can be a big or a small place. If the shoe fits.

barry said...

Another anti establishment whiner who feel they are opinionated and is above the average Singaporean.

Guess what, half of our country are just a bunch of whiners like you. Ask not what your country can do for you, but what you can do for your country. Be the change you want to see. Singapore has strict draconian law but look at the environment we have now. Do you worry about your son getting kidnapped on the way back home for random? Do you install house alarm and 999 on speed dial to prepare for home invasion? Do you avoid clubbing because gangs on drug high might gang rape you? Do you wear your backpack on the front because evertime you don't, people slash your bag and empty its content from behind?

Reason why there are no massive protest is because everyone has done a cost benefit analysis and life is bearable here. You can be a Singaporean yet be yourself. It doesn't matter how your job interviewer talks to you. That's them. Unless you care about them, why do I care how narrow minded they are. Verbal abuse don't hurt me.

Interesting you brought up drug trafficking penalty. We have recently removed the mandatory death sentence. Our country is opening up but it must be over time. You do not throw open the flood gate and hope for the best. Freedom you asked, yet look at what's the social consequence since internet liberation of the youth which bypasses our censorship most of the time.

Sexual activity beginning at younger age, rise in abortions, moral values down to negligable level, respect, humbleness, altruism non existence. We have now a self centered population of youth who are told by the internet how great, awesome, invincible, savvy, swag they are. Everyone talks like a idiot online with zero substance now but want to be praised for their originality and genius. Most of the people just say 'chill lar', 'relax'. That's because in their infinite dimwittedness, they do not see the bigger shift happening in our society. There are values worth keeping.


Westernised or not, there is no excuse for using vulgarity, unless you feel your command of english isn't sufficient to express your thoughts and your frustration can only be felt with fucking, fucks, cunts then alright do what you must.

What our education has failed is to train independent thinkers. We now have a army of Singaporean who uses the same few english words and that's what bother me the most lol. 'my 2 cents worth' 'irregardless' 'to a certain extent'

Meh, this post is gonna be buried in these internet comment in a few mins and no one will read this. Oh well, I fee better after typing it out :)

Anonymous said...

A very well composed and eloquent reply. My husband and I immigrated back from the UK because of the exact reasons you have mentioned. Him, being a Welsh, can appreciate the benefits of Singapore over the UK. It bemuses him how insular the locals are and it makes our blood boil sometimes. Try paying taxes of ridiculous amounts every month (it's not even like our CPF for crying out loud) and gain almost nothing from such laws.

Jess said...

Next time people ask why I want to get the hell out of here I will link this post. THANK YOU

Anonymous said...

Let's start a riot.
More bigger than Malaysia. :D

Anonymous said...

LOL! Dude, I'm sure you are right and you only need to work 2 days a weeks in other countries.

Anonymous said...

love ur attitude

Anonymous said...

buay song ah?? diam diam fuck off la knn so noisy

Anonymous said...

She is absolutely right!!!

Anonymous said...

WAKE UP SINGAPORE! By the way.. Great blog, Biatch!! Loved it!

Anonymous said...

If we're going to play the blame game. Let's analyze the people.

Alot of us, Singaporean are cold, unfriendly and defensive in nature. We do not feel the need to acknowledge the presence of others. (Especially Cleaners, they almost like have invisible cloak I swear) Most are self centered who feel self important and should be revered by others for their 'out of the box' thinking (which they read somewhere online, probably 9gag) and think by complaining about imperfection of their life, it makes them political and aware of the world. It's like the world cup every election, suddenly everyone's a expert.

We raised a group of people who condescend to the poor and visit old folk home to fullfill school/work place requirements or as a ego booster to feel good about themselves. We overemphasize education and look down on people with a different skill type as us. Do you know how to lie cable, put foundation for building, mix concrete, build roads? Nope, but because they never study chemistry / bio in school like me, it gotta mean they are dumber than me.

We love to sell ourselves as worldly people because we spent alot of our holiday going on tour package. If I do backpacking, it shows what a adventurer I am. We think we know everything there is. I mean, I grow up knowing Hamburger, USA. Pasta, Italian. Rendang, Indonesian. Sushi, Japan (Oh, btw almost all your so called Japanese restaurant are from the same local chain, there are actually many varieties of Japanese food beside Salmon, Tuna and Swordfish. Btw, Wasabi (DON'T pronounce as WasaBEH please, it gives me the urge to throw the bottle of Wasabi down your throat. I know it's Japanese but bi is still pronounced bi). Yup, I grew up eating all sorts of international food. I know my stuff ok?!

I am fine and comfortable about how poor my English is..In fact, I will make it worst so you think it's all an act! My lack of aspiration to better my linguist is to matain our Singaporean culture of Singlish and mix and match way of speaking of dual language. Do check out out local forums for some examples. It's amazing how every logical arguement is resolved with a few Hokkien curse words. It's pathetic how many resort to gansterism manner to speak to press their point. Please don't settle arguement with 'come out and talk la, keyboard warrior'. Just remember, violence is the last refuge for the imcompetence.

I have typed so long that I've forgoten what's the point of this post.

I guess I just want to say be humble (just imagine you dying right now, the world is still going to run its course and the sun will still rise tommorow. You are NOT that important), work for things and not expect it as a given right, respect and love your family, live your life with integrity and enjoy the little things in life. You will someday learn that life is not about a destination but the journey. Don't despair at the bumps in your life. Your work problems are miniscule compared to the hardship someone is going through right now. So what if your school result is crap, perhaps you are destined to do good in other aspect of life. There is more than one path in life, find it.

Anonymous said...

I love u

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